Today is Wednesday september 30, 2009 and I have decided to rest but what is rest when you struggle just to stay in bed and have some peace and quiet for one day when you live with other people.
I started of this morning struggling like I always do whether to eat or not cause of things that have been hurting me in the past or just cause of yesterday. Life is not easy when you live where God wants you and I really don’t want to be in that situation or circumstance in todays world. I wish I could pick instead of God picking for me cause that would be alot easier for me.
I know there is alot of things going on with everybody struggling just to do the everyday routine with family, friends or even talk to the one closest to you when it all comes down to it.
Jamal Bryant wrote a book called world war me and he talks about struggling alot and making wise choices for life and I think its a really good book that I might just have to get and see how good it really is.
But my main point is I struggle within myself for almost everything cause every reach seems like soo far away. I think climbing is easy but getting through a struggle is a bit of a habbit and moving on to the next stop in life today.
I know that there is more than just me to that is struggling with this everyday going to struggle with or should i say from marriage or being single to the next choice you have to make tomorrow with dealing with relationships and more! Honestly I struggle with things nobody can look at me and see but we all know that they are there but you can’t see them until I say it from my mouth.
My point is struggling is not easy especially when I don’t want to eat all day! but I have to . . . but just don’t feel like it. . . cause of certains or the environment of not focusing on to be real in and stay connected too.
Everybody has a struggle as I sit here about to cry Lord help me get through my struggles to have more of you! and sometimes it seems like my struggle is bigger than God.
womanofworship